So its been a minute since i wrote. This last week has been crazy and emotional. I found out that we are expecting ANOTHER baby!! Not sure when we are due yet but we will find out in 8 days!

We celebrated Gunners second birthday. His Actual birthday was on the 31st. We took him some balloons and a little Mator truck to the cemetary. We had a little birthday party for him on the 3rd of september. It was really awesome! We all wrote a birthday message on balloons and then released them to him all together. We had cake and ice cream, and everyone got to share a memory of him in a scrapbook that my sister and her mother in law had put together for me!!( it was awesome thank you!!!) We also did a little donation jar that we are going to donate the money to Intermountain healing hearts next week at there annual heart walk. I hope to do this every year and i hope that every year we can raise more money for chd awarness and research!! 

Wow!!

I have five followers!! that is excited.. Granted one of them is my self (snickers). I added my self and i dont know how to erase me..

Today i want to talk about my sweet boy Gunner and How happy i am that i got to be his mommy. I feel so lucky that i got to take care of Gunner for the short time that he was here. I miss him more than anything but i am comforted by the thought of where he is now. That he no longer has to go threw the pain and struggles he faced.
I have ran into a few people that didnt know about Gunners passing and they asked me how he was doing. I responded with he is doing great!! He is all better and his heart is finally all better!! They looked at me like i was crazy but then realized what i meant.. It is a very sad situation but how lucky was i that i got to be such an amazing little boys mommy!!

Some thing i found that really helps me get threw the bad days since Gunner left.

It's a beautiful day up in heaven. Jesus is rounding up his tiniest angels, to go live on earth, and be born. One of the sweetest angels says to Jesus "I don't want to leave, I like it here, and I will miss you".... He reassures the scared little angel that everything will be okay, and that he is just going for a visit. He is still not swayed on this idea. So Jesus kneels down, and says, "How about if you leave half of your heart here with me and take the other half with you, will that be okay?" The angel smiles and says, "I guess that will work". But the little angel is still a little scared.
“Will I be okay with only half of my heart?” Jesus replies, “of course you will, I have other angels there that will help out, and you will be fine.” Then Jesus gives the angel more details about his plan. He says “When you are born, your mommy will be scared, so you have to be strong, and when you feel week just remember that I have the other half of your heart. Enjoy your time with your family, play and laugh every day, and when it’s time to come back to heaven, I will make your heart whole again. Always remember that you are not broken, just torn between two loves… By Savana Williams

Wow im actually doing a second post!!!!

I'm not sure what to write about but maybe i should start with what we did this summer.

We went on our first family vacation. We went to San Diego. It was so much fun. We took the kids to Sea World and the beach. We had so much fun that we cant wait to go back next summer. Although next time we will remember to pack some jackets.. Its a lot colder there than here..

After we got home from San Diego Wes and I went on a Cruise to Ensanada Mexico. It was a blast. It was so amazing to see how big those ships are. They are MASSIVE!!!! It was like a dream come true.

It was a great summer and I'm glad that we got to do somethings we hadn't done before. I hope next year is just as adventurous.

Giving it a try.

Ok so i have decided to give this a try.. I am not good with writing so be paitent with me. Lets start with today.

Wes is suppose to be deployed right now but wasnt able to go due to a blown ACL in his knee. He had surgery in June. His recovery has been slow and hard but he is coming around and things are looking up. It will still be a few more months before he can return to work but atleast he is home and safe..

Kiendle started 1st grade last week and seems to be loving it!! She is getting so big, it is crazy to think that she is 6 and before we know it she will be graduating high school!

Taiden is doing awesome he has been in a program helping him with his speech and he is doing so much better! I couldnt be prouder! And he finally potty trained!!! YAY!!!

Duke is now 7 1/2 months and and getting HUGE!! I can hardly believe it!! He started crawling about two weeks ago but he was stuck in reverse.. Today he actually got it in the right gear and headed forward!!! Go DUKERS!!! Still no teeth but i think it will happen soon!

We are coming up on the 8th month  anniversary to Gunner passing away, And his second birthday. It seems like it is getting harder as this time approaches. I miss my baby boy so so much!!  We are going to be having a little birthday party for him and release some balloons with birthday messages on them. We are going to do cake and ice cream and have everyone share memories of Gunner.